First giving honor to my Father God and the Holy Trinity as a whole, who has given me the strength to post this. Well, I've been thinking back many a day since these situations occurred, but I'll break it down in as few paragraphs as possible. Keep in mind that I DO take responsibility for my actions and this is why I am in the rut I'm in to this day. I've "acted out" in public places to the point where people in my town do nothing but laugh at me and treat me with the uttermost disrespect. I'm not saying they're all the way wrong, I'm saying they're partially right because they don't know the state-of-mind I was in at the time.
Now, back in 2000 (summertime to be exact) I shared a blunt with some people I thought were good people, but little did I know that they had ulterior motives in mind as why and how I contracted Pharyngitis, a form of bacteria that builds up in the pharynx in the throat, then works their waste to the inside of the tonsils in one's throat. I was so sick I thought I was going to die! So, one of my parents told me to wait for them to clock out of work to take me to the emergency room, but did I wait? Nope... I asked a neighbor for a ride to the hospital of my choice and I then found out my mother had just left from an exam. I was so afraid that this infection was going to kill me right then and there I got on my knees and prayed facing east and bowed down in the custom of most Christians and Muslims alike.
Then there were two nurses lurking in the shadows behind the front desk assuming they were watching the whole scenario, so they called in to security to take me to a hospital room. There I was told to change into a gown they provided me and to lay or sit on the hospital bed in the room (this is interesting to me: why in the world there was the number 19 on the top of the door is beyond me, especially that I was 19 years old at the time.). All-in-all I am remorseful for the situation happening as it did not because I am prayerful, but because I rarely paid attention to God protecting me back then. What's changed? Me, of course. My ability to have re-obtained a healthy prayer life with my Lord and Saviour has been and still is an honor as well as a blessing and to be able to share in peace AND with the peace of knowing that someone out there can and will be blessed by the mentioning of the fact that I am joyful in the Lord my God.
To make a long story short, I have survived this and many psychologically and emotionally hurtful situations to the point where I'm still able to breathe the breath of life just one more day. I am a testimony that God is able to move your life for the greater good, not the opposite. Besides: what the devil made for bad, I'm so so glad, God made it for my good.
It is quite unfortunate that most (not all) do not understand that in order for things to go well for people our wants, needs, and desires must, I repeat MUST LINE UP WITH THE WORD OF GOD. If it doesn't, well quite frankly, it won't last long if at all. This is why He tells us to ask for the desires of our hearts and we will receive: if it's a new anything, vehicle, job, house, family, peace, you name it... AS LONG AS IT LINES UP PEOPLE. Plain and simple as this. I bid you all a safe journey throughout the rest of this month, year and life and may the mercies of the Lord shine on you for ever. Amen.
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